We have all come so far

Today my baby turned 5 years old. Feeling a little melancholy and Joy all at once. My last baby is growing up way too fast. This time of year is a tough one for me. Tristan's Birth is definately something I celebrate. Of course come on look at him he's awesome. BUT At the same time it always stirs up the bad feelings too. The fear and sorrow I experienced when I first heard the words "I think your son has Down Syndrome. I am so sorry" It felt like someone hit me in the back of the head with a brick. I didn't even know what it meant. Of course I had heard of Down Syndrome and saw a few people that had Down syndrome but what did it mean. I didn't actually know someone that had this extra Chromosome. All through elementry school and high school never once did I see a child that had Down Syndrome. Where did they hide all these children. Yes these were some of my first thoughts. I also thought I should have 5 or 6 more children just to be sure one of Tristan's sibilings would want to care for him once I grew old and no longer could. I giggle about that one now. Yes I have come far too. Today I no longer expect either of his sibilings to take care of him. In fact I am quite confindent that he will be just fine. He may need their love and guidance but who doesn't need that from their family. Luckily our society has come far too. We no longer hide children with Down Syndrome away. We advocate fiercely and passionately. The past 5 years have flown by so quickly. I am so proud of how far we have come. Thank you sweet boy for all you have taught me. I am truely blessed!